Dating fear being alone
I don’t feel like I’m missing out because I go to bed by myself.It isn’t the prospect of having no one to share my bed with that makes me nervous.
When you don’t have dating on your mind, not getting a text means nothing to you.I’m over trying to put myself out there when all I ever get in return are bruises and emotional scars.It may sound bitter, but really, isn't it just logical not to want to deal?I’m delightful company, and I would rather hold court with Ernest Hemingway than a Tinder date.A random guy may spit a lot of game over text and yet be completely mundane over a dinner table.We always say we humans are innately fearful of loneliness.
We stay in bad relationships, relationships that bore us to tears, abusive relationships and unfulfilling relationships because we’re so petrified of the alternative: being single.
Once you know what it’s like to get hurt, the last thing you want to do is put yourself in that situation again.
For me, I’d rather just be finished with the whole thing. I’d rather not seek out a potential partner when I know there is the potential for getting my heart broken.
I’d prefer to go to parties and weddings alone rather than be questioned by every person I know, every time the man on my arm is someone new. After all, they’re the ones who will need to pick up the pieces should things fall apart.
Yet I don’t want to play compromise with my girlfriends for a guy who won’t last the time it takes to brunch.
I’d rather keep the sacred space that is my bed untainted.