There’s fear that it really was all your fault/lack of value/insecurities that temporarily turned solid gold into a f*cktard.
And because I was too young to change my environment, I always tried to please everyone and just be “enough.” This provided a fertile ground for lying, inauthenticity, drama-creation, rejection, and a lot of unnecessary pain and humiliation on my end.Those people in my childhood induced anxiety and an uncertainty in me as far as how worthy I felt.They also instilled a sense of responsibility that I took on for their emotional handicaps.My goal is to amplify what’s destined for you so you can stop living at the expense of it.1) I used to be attracted to narcissists.Looking back in 20/20 hindsight, these people were a very different animal but the same common-denominator species as prominent figures in my childhood who were highly narcissistic and toxic.As an adult, I had the power to actually change my environment.
But because I was never given access to the innate tools to do so, I froze in relationsh*ts way past their expiration date.
Ducks don’t turn into swans just because you decide you’ve had enough of waiting for them to transform and turn your head for a moment.
And swans don’t become ducks just because they’re in insecure company. It’s called misrepresentation and it’s the biggest turnoff.
They left from Brisbane, looking forward to a seven-day round trip to Vanuatu, along with 1500 or so other passengers.
But by the time the ship would dock, early on Sunday morning, Natasha Schofield would be gone.
The “what-if” force is very strong with narcissists.